Shakes and Shivers

The pain just hides itself for hours and hours on end. But then at the most random times, it appears. I cut till I bleed enough to satisfy my need. Or till I begin to feel in a rush or hurried by my conscience. Today in particular, I did not achieve the satisfaction to the fullest. I no longer feel pain when I cut into my skin. It's just numb; occasionally, I feel a sting shoot up my hand, which is an amazing feeling which causes my hands to shake and shiver continuously. I Love It! "I won't stop, it feels amazing." That is exactly what I feel as I go red.