Everyone has secrets. Some are small, others can make or break a relationship.Then there are those few secrets that can ruin your life if it were to ever get out. Once these secrets get out, you begin to do reckless things that become dangerous and addictive. As time goes on, you begin to doubt yourself and your existence. My secret is I suffer from Self Injury and many Personality Disorders. These are my journal entries about how my secret affects my life daily... Live on my Lovelies!
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Is The End Drawing Nearer?
I first joined IMVU back in September. I had mixed feelings, like this will be fun I can tell people how I truly feel and find people who will truly understand. But there was always that thought of "Oh, you are just gunna get hurt, just like reality!" but I managed to push that thought aside and went along with it. I was going really well the first month of having it. Then I met people... The wrong people as you may call it. They toyed with my emotions. I didn't realize it until it was over. But I kept falling into their continuous traps. I soon began to develop feelings, true feelings. Bad Bad Bad!!! NO THIS CANT HAPPEN! IT SHOULDNT HAPPEN!! I shut down my heart like over a year ago and haven't had feelings since then. I don't know what to do because this person seemed to move onto another.. This other person, who was a friend of mine at the beginning, then seemed to completely ignore me and become totally infatuated and blind sighted and only was interested in this one person. I hurt... ALOT. Knowing that this one person used to have feelings about me, and it all changed in a split second. I don't know what to do anymore... I am a super sensitive person... Overly sensitive. That's why I shut down. I give up. I shall be alone forever!. I have no social life, don't think I will ever have one. I am too permanently broken. I give up. I'm Sorry.
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